a student's experience designing life.

Occasionally I get depressed and anxious.  It usually happens when I’m not doing the things I should be doing.  If I slack on homework, or show up to classes late time after time, eventually I end up with the Mean Reds.

If you’ve ever seen Breakfast at Tiffany’s, then you might know what I’m talking about.  Holly explains to her new neighbor that she sometimes gets the Mean Reds.  He asks if she means the Blues.  She says, no, the Mean Reds is when you want to stay in bed all day afraid–afraid of what? who knows; but afraid all the same.

Here’s a clip. She starts explaining it at 2:42, but the whole scene is delicious.

So, yes.  I have the Mean Reds, today.  I have a shit-ton of work I need to catch up on, but every time I go home, I’m simply too exhausted to do any of it.  Instead I watch a few episodes of Boston Legal and go to sleep.  I am so angry and annoyed with  myself, and very anxious about going to class.

I’m going to finish an assignment I missed the other day, and then head home to my cave, skipping my last class of the day.  Not the best solution, but the only one I’ve got.

I think I just need to go to St. Louis and get some hugs from my family.  Maybe that’s my Tiffany’s.